Tuesday, June 14, 2011
♥ Post-dinner thoughts
I know I know. I totally failed the 30 days challenge thing haha well who'd expect me to be able to complete it successfully anw. But I'll definitely try to complete it. In about er.. 10 yrs' time? Yea probably. Must. Stay. Optimistic.
LOL.
Anyway, well I'm here coz I need to blog out some stuff that's causing me to feel sad. Basically what happened was I tried to be nice and organized this mini celebration dinner thing for a colleague who's getting married. Well it went alright except for that only 4 people ordered something to eat, and 3 people left early (the team only has 9 ppl in total). And basically I've been picking up hints from a couple of individuals indicating that they might not be so willing to attend this kind of thing.
So I end up feeling like I've done something really extra and redundant.
So I started wondering how come the atmosphere then was so different as compared to when I go out w my friends, even though everyone are really nice people. Then I realise that good teammates =/= good friends.
Good teammates can work well and be super productive together, producing impressive results etc. But that doesnt mean they like to hang out with each other on a more personal level like just spending time talking about stuff other than work over a cup of drink. Well, sometimes that does happen lah, but going out together? Definitely not possible.
And so I thought, if this is how I'm going to become when I start working in future, then I'm going to become such a no-lifer. Ok maybe not to the extent of no life but imagine facing the same people every single day and they're nothing more than colleagues.
Ok I'm digressing alr.
My main point was, organizing this kind of things seem really really extra and redundant and money + time wasting for the perms and I dont think I should do it again. Such things might seem lovely in school context where you celebrate someone's bday or something. But it gets super diluted when you go out into society I guess. Coz most people just want to live their own lives and can't really be bothered about yours.
It's lacking warmth.
I'm digressing again.
Ya the main thing is, I dont think I should organize another team lunch/dinner/wtv. But I think I should on the day tt the other temp in the team is leaving. But.. Idk.
Sigh.
LOL.
Anyway, well I'm here coz I need to blog out some stuff that's causing me to feel sad. Basically what happened was I tried to be nice and organized this mini celebration dinner thing for a colleague who's getting married. Well it went alright except for that only 4 people ordered something to eat, and 3 people left early (the team only has 9 ppl in total). And basically I've been picking up hints from a couple of individuals indicating that they might not be so willing to attend this kind of thing.
So I end up feeling like I've done something really extra and redundant.
So I started wondering how come the atmosphere then was so different as compared to when I go out w my friends, even though everyone are really nice people. Then I realise that good teammates =/= good friends.
Good teammates can work well and be super productive together, producing impressive results etc. But that doesnt mean they like to hang out with each other on a more personal level like just spending time talking about stuff other than work over a cup of drink. Well, sometimes that does happen lah, but going out together? Definitely not possible.
And so I thought, if this is how I'm going to become when I start working in future, then I'm going to become such a no-lifer. Ok maybe not to the extent of no life but imagine facing the same people every single day and they're nothing more than colleagues.
Ok I'm digressing alr.
My main point was, organizing this kind of things seem really really extra and redundant and money + time wasting for the perms and I dont think I should do it again. Such things might seem lovely in school context where you celebrate someone's bday or something. But it gets super diluted when you go out into society I guess. Coz most people just want to live their own lives and can't really be bothered about yours.
It's lacking warmth.
I'm digressing again.
Ya the main thing is, I dont think I should organize another team lunch/dinner/wtv. But I think I should on the day tt the other temp in the team is leaving. But.. Idk.
Sigh.
10:01 PM
Monday, May 30, 2011
♥ 29. Five weird things that you like
Uh ok this is quite hard. First, I need to define what the things I like are. Then I actually have to figure out whether they’re weird. Ok let’s try.
1. I like shopping alone. Ok not necessarily shopping, but I like walking around in malls by myself when I’m looking for something I want to get. Or to window shop. Coz somehow when I shop with someone, I’ll feel slightly restricted. Oh but I’m totally fine with shopping with others when I’m not particularly looking out for anything, that’ll be called walking around with company. Oh not to forget I like walking around malls with someone, doing nothing but talking about anything and everything. Haha.
2. I like walking around places myself. But this is highly dependent on my mood and place coz erm. I might tend to get lonely when I see something exciting and there’s nobody to share it with. But generally I value my time alone. And I guess since I don’t really have the habit of going out of my way to visit places like parks by myself, I end up just randomly walking around malls (esp JP) on the way home. It’s nice coz it either helps me clear my head of whatever unpleasant things I don’t want to think about, or allows me to slowly ponder over some thoughts while letting the atmosphere of the mall wash over me.
3. I like big empty offices. Hahaha this is what I found out only recently when perms frm my workplace go for company lunch etc. It’s especially fab when the weather’s all stormy/cooling and I’m at my office desk, all wrapped up in my jacket and doing my stuff.
4. I like to rewatch movies over and over again. Well, at least those movies that I find acceptable/entertaining. Oh this applies more even more to books, I think. I can read the same storybook over and over again and still not get sick of it. My favourite genres of books are fantasy books. I still remember my dad tried to get me hooked on those mystery Nancy Drew books when I was young. Well they were pretty interesting, but I guess I like fantasy stories more haha. Totally living in my own world, I know. Lol.
5. I like watching people’s eyes. Ok I know that sounded weird haha. What I meant was I like observing where people look by watching their eyes. Ok I guess this can be pretty creepy behavior on my part but it’s interesting and I do try to be as discrete as possible. And of course, I can only stare at people with the -.- look when I catch them staring at my you-know-where. Most of them don’t even know that I’m glaring at them while they’re so focused on staring at me. In fact I think this habit of mine was born from that lol. =(
Ok yep that’s it. It’s pretty normal actually, I can’t really think of things that I like that are weird-weird. Only different-weird like those above I guess. But I think those that are listed above are pretty common actually. Lol.
As usual, I have nothing to do in office. Here’s saying HELLO to all those reading this post coz it has come to my knowledge that my blog is not as private as I thought. =X Haha. But oh well, it doesn’t matter. =) I’m actually typing this on MS Words so that it won’t seem so obvious in the office hahaha. ^^
Anyway, we celebrated YJ’s bday on Saturday! Happy Birthday and welcome to the club, YJ! ^^ Haha I know you love the card, because I’m actually quite impressed with it also. =P HEH. Eh I made it from 1.30am – 4am that morning leh. I do deserve some credit for it! Haha. =) But well, we went for ramen lunch and it was not bad! Just that I needed to drink lots of water from the saltiness and I forgot to order half-serving. Plus Weng kept on saying that the original outlet is better. Hmm I might try the original outlet, but I highly doubt I’m going back to the one at Taka anymore. =X But well anyways, it was a nice afternoon spent together with the peeps! :D Hope to meet up again soon!
Yep after we split up Weng and me spent a loooooong time looking for the post office in ION. Srsly, it’s a really bad location for a post office? If they can’t afford to give SingPost a better location, why not just don’t house SingPost in ION lah, I don’t think people actually think about mailing something when they visit ION right? Unless that branch is specially for the shop owners or something.
Yea then after that I went to shop at JP! (you can see this is how I came up with the 5 points in the above challenge question. Lol.) And I made the decision to buy this pair of heels that I’ve been eyeing for at least 2 – 3 months! It’s white with a black ribbon in front. It was a tad bit high for complete comfort but it looked so pretty and cute! Got it for 28.80bucks. But when I brought it home, my mum and sis both said that it wasn’t as nice as they thought it would be (coz I smsed them saying that I bought a pair of shoes before I reached home) and that white shoes make my feet look even darker than they already are + it’s harder to match with clothes. =( Yea I was pretty sad about it, considering that I made the decision to buy it only after so long and such. But well, they went w me to JP the next day (Sunday) and we went to look for nicer designs coz the shop allows for shoe changes as long as the original ones are still in perfect condition. So yep we changed it for this shorter pair of cream colour heels with a polka dotted ribbon at the side of the ankle. I thought that the original pair was nicer but both my sis and mum thought otherwise. =( And well, sad to say but I actually have more confidence in their taste than my own so, yep. =) Coz the pair they have in the shop wasn’t in perfect condition so I placed an order and am waiting for their sms for me to go collect. =D
1. I like shopping alone. Ok not necessarily shopping, but I like walking around in malls by myself when I’m looking for something I want to get. Or to window shop. Coz somehow when I shop with someone, I’ll feel slightly restricted. Oh but I’m totally fine with shopping with others when I’m not particularly looking out for anything, that’ll be called walking around with company. Oh not to forget I like walking around malls with someone, doing nothing but talking about anything and everything. Haha.
2. I like walking around places myself. But this is highly dependent on my mood and place coz erm. I might tend to get lonely when I see something exciting and there’s nobody to share it with. But generally I value my time alone. And I guess since I don’t really have the habit of going out of my way to visit places like parks by myself, I end up just randomly walking around malls (esp JP) on the way home. It’s nice coz it either helps me clear my head of whatever unpleasant things I don’t want to think about, or allows me to slowly ponder over some thoughts while letting the atmosphere of the mall wash over me.
3. I like big empty offices. Hahaha this is what I found out only recently when perms frm my workplace go for company lunch etc. It’s especially fab when the weather’s all stormy/cooling and I’m at my office desk, all wrapped up in my jacket and doing my stuff.
4. I like to rewatch movies over and over again. Well, at least those movies that I find acceptable/entertaining. Oh this applies more even more to books, I think. I can read the same storybook over and over again and still not get sick of it. My favourite genres of books are fantasy books. I still remember my dad tried to get me hooked on those mystery Nancy Drew books when I was young. Well they were pretty interesting, but I guess I like fantasy stories more haha. Totally living in my own world, I know. Lol.
5. I like watching people’s eyes. Ok I know that sounded weird haha. What I meant was I like observing where people look by watching their eyes. Ok I guess this can be pretty creepy behavior on my part but it’s interesting and I do try to be as discrete as possible. And of course, I can only stare at people with the -.- look when I catch them staring at my you-know-where. Most of them don’t even know that I’m glaring at them while they’re so focused on staring at me. In fact I think this habit of mine was born from that lol. =(
Ok yep that’s it. It’s pretty normal actually, I can’t really think of things that I like that are weird-weird. Only different-weird like those above I guess. But I think those that are listed above are pretty common actually. Lol.
As usual, I have nothing to do in office. Here’s saying HELLO to all those reading this post coz it has come to my knowledge that my blog is not as private as I thought. =X Haha. But oh well, it doesn’t matter. =) I’m actually typing this on MS Words so that it won’t seem so obvious in the office hahaha. ^^
Anyway, we celebrated YJ’s bday on Saturday! Happy Birthday and welcome to the club, YJ! ^^ Haha I know you love the card, because I’m actually quite impressed with it also. =P HEH. Eh I made it from 1.30am – 4am that morning leh. I do deserve some credit for it! Haha. =) But well, we went for ramen lunch and it was not bad! Just that I needed to drink lots of water from the saltiness and I forgot to order half-serving. Plus Weng kept on saying that the original outlet is better. Hmm I might try the original outlet, but I highly doubt I’m going back to the one at Taka anymore. =X But well anyways, it was a nice afternoon spent together with the peeps! :D Hope to meet up again soon!
Yep after we split up Weng and me spent a loooooong time looking for the post office in ION. Srsly, it’s a really bad location for a post office? If they can’t afford to give SingPost a better location, why not just don’t house SingPost in ION lah, I don’t think people actually think about mailing something when they visit ION right? Unless that branch is specially for the shop owners or something.
Yea then after that I went to shop at JP! (you can see this is how I came up with the 5 points in the above challenge question. Lol.) And I made the decision to buy this pair of heels that I’ve been eyeing for at least 2 – 3 months! It’s white with a black ribbon in front. It was a tad bit high for complete comfort but it looked so pretty and cute! Got it for 28.80bucks. But when I brought it home, my mum and sis both said that it wasn’t as nice as they thought it would be (coz I smsed them saying that I bought a pair of shoes before I reached home) and that white shoes make my feet look even darker than they already are + it’s harder to match with clothes. =( Yea I was pretty sad about it, considering that I made the decision to buy it only after so long and such. But well, they went w me to JP the next day (Sunday) and we went to look for nicer designs coz the shop allows for shoe changes as long as the original ones are still in perfect condition. So yep we changed it for this shorter pair of cream colour heels with a polka dotted ribbon at the side of the ankle. I thought that the original pair was nicer but both my sis and mum thought otherwise. =( And well, sad to say but I actually have more confidence in their taste than my own so, yep. =) Coz the pair they have in the shop wasn’t in perfect condition so I placed an order and am waiting for their sms for me to go collect. =D
10:14 AM
Friday, May 27, 2011
♥ 30. One thing you're excited for
Ok I'm finally getting down to doing this coz I'm really bored at work. There's really interesting going on (for me at least). And since the first qn is just so damn tough I'm gna follow RachKam and do starting from the last qn. =D
Ok something I'm excited for. I was going to say uni, until I realised that I have this perfect ans after going out w (part of) CTG ytd. Ok actually it was after the train ride on the way to meet them.
If you're frm CTG and you're reading this, I think you might knw what I'm talking about by now. ;)
Hahahahahaha shallow as it is, I'm actually excited about this cute guy who's interning at my workplace starting this week! =P Ok this is making me sound totally desperate, shallow and whatnot. But still. C'mon, it's been a really long time since I've seen a cute guy! And with the potential to become part of my social circle somemore! Haha. Well too bad the guy isnt interning in my team but since I know the temp in that team... Close enough. =P
Mok, you're not the only one seeing cute guys. xD
And HF, too bad I really think he's attached.
Well I dont have any intention of going aft him in a bgr manner anw. Just.. Eyecandy hahaha. ^^ Perks of my job lol. Somemore he's going to be around all the way till I stop working so, woohoo~ Haha. Actually there's another intern in another team who's quite good looking also. But the one I'm supposedly "excited" about is more friendly so, too bad. But aiyah I'm just joking lah. We just happen to have a nice conversation on the train and I just hope I can gain another friend. =) The looks are just an additional bonus. xD
Speaking of interns, did I mention that the intern who just joined my team is giving me stress? As in, she's not actively giving me pressure like keep on acting like my boss and breathing down my neck or anything like that. In fact she's a really nice person and very friendly also. Think it's just my own mentality/personality problem lah. =X
Ok I really hope these interns never ever find my blog. Ever. If not, I'm dead. But well, if you're one of the interns I mentioned up there and you're reading this, I want you to understand that I mean no harm ok. Those are just some of the crazy thoughts I have that I HAPPEN TO blog out. If you cannot stand it then probably we wont be very close friends in future either so... Ya.
Yep ok, just now my team head dated me for lunch hahaha. Went for Subway! Like finally lol. After eating Quiznos last night, I thought I preferred Subway. But after eating Subway, I can't decide b/w the two heh. I think I love the Quiznos cookie but I love Subway for having a wider variety of choices! =) But anw, both are good so yep, a recommendation frm me! =)
Anw, during the "date", my team head actually talked to me about alot of stuff, from work to personal life. I think she wanted to find out how I thought about the team/e2i so far so I just gave her my honest opinions coz really, working in e2i, in V6 has been really enjoyable and I really honestly believe that I got the best temp position in the world. Although I grumble alot about my work, esp during recent days, I wouldnt exchange it for any other temp position, even if the pay is like 10bucks/hr or something. The work, although not distributed to me, is intriguing and interesting. And I really want to stay on to see what more I can learn and experience. So hopefully hopefully hopefully I'll be getting some work soon coz well I feedback to my team head that there's nothing much for me to do at the moment. Anw Mok, if you're reading this, this is why I'm hesitating about quitting early. Honestly, if my job sucked, I wouldn't even have extended my contract you see. =)
Well my team head also talked to me about alot of stuff like learning and growing up, knowing how to differentiate b/w learning the right from the wrong things, being more sensitive and aware of the things around me, etc. I actually told her that one of the problems I'm facing is low self-esteem/confidence. Coz I realise that I always look to other people for affirmation when it comes to decision making; whether the decision is something practical like what I should study, to things like is this the kind of person I want to/should become? Well I think that's just a problem that I have to think about and deal with myself. Coz I cant be babysat (is there such a word?) for the rest of my whole life and someday, I need to be able to stand on my own feet and be confident of being who I am, whoever that is. So yep, I guess this lack of confidence is actually part of my learning experience and honestly speaking, it's good that I'm aware of it. then at least I'll be able to face it and see what I can do about it. =) Ah this is one of the times when I realise that I'm still just a kid who's growing up. =D
Am I actually making sense?
I just received a highly irritating call frm a highly irritating JS. I think she's misunderstanding something (alot of things, maybe) and yet continues to refuse to listen to what exactly I'm saying. I think she thinks the world revolves around her. Srsly, so what if you're a PR and you urgently need a job. Hello. Everyone who comes here needs a job. I dont see why they can still be polite and appreciative of the help given to them while you're just coming here and demanding for things to be done solely for you. Srsly, if she continues to be like that, she might just become one of the cases which I'll turn away due to unreasonable attitude. =(
Ok sorry just a bit of ranting there. =(
Anw yep, back to happy things.
Yep I'm excited about university too! Not much at the moment, but I think that's coz I'm still working so, don't really have much time to think about university yet. But I know I'll be excited about it once I start attending those camps and all. And well, adrenaline rushes when I (just) realise that I havent sent the form P to confirm my acceptance. =X Haha shit I have to do it by tomorrow.
Eh shit now I have a lot of things that I'm excited about. I'm excited about all the upcoming events that my team has in the second week of June, esp this master class that my supervisor is organising. I'm excited about YJ's bday celebration tmr. I'm excited about my colleague's wedding and my team head said I can date her to go buy shoes if I need a new pair (I srsly dont have any nice shoes to wear for the wedding! Ok now I sound like I'm the bride. -.-) Haha yea so actually life's really happy and exciting right now. =) Lots of interesting things to look forward to!
Oh btw meeting up with Mok + Rach + Fang was pretty fun and interesting ytd. =) Had an awesome time with you guys I love you all to Pluto and back! =D I love how comfortable it feels and we're able to sit down and just talk/laugh about anything and everything. Sometime ago I was still thinking that my laughter has gotten less since idk when and I was feeling slightly sad about it. But hanging around you guys definitely brings the laughter and happiness back. Thank you peeps, you guys rock to the core. =D
Ok something I'm excited for. I was going to say uni, until I realised that I have this perfect ans after going out w (part of) CTG ytd. Ok actually it was after the train ride on the way to meet them.
If you're frm CTG and you're reading this, I think you might knw what I'm talking about by now. ;)
Hahahahahaha shallow as it is, I'm actually excited about this cute guy who's interning at my workplace starting this week! =P Ok this is making me sound totally desperate, shallow and whatnot. But still. C'mon, it's been a really long time since I've seen a cute guy! And with the potential to become part of my social circle somemore! Haha. Well too bad the guy isnt interning in my team but since I know the temp in that team... Close enough. =P
Mok, you're not the only one seeing cute guys. xD
And HF, too bad I really think he's attached.
Well I dont have any intention of going aft him in a bgr manner anw. Just.. Eyecandy hahaha. ^^ Perks of my job lol. Somemore he's going to be around all the way till I stop working so, woohoo~ Haha. Actually there's another intern in another team who's quite good looking also. But the one I'm supposedly "excited" about is more friendly so, too bad. But aiyah I'm just joking lah. We just happen to have a nice conversation on the train and I just hope I can gain another friend. =) The looks are just an additional bonus. xD
Speaking of interns, did I mention that the intern who just joined my team is giving me stress? As in, she's not actively giving me pressure like keep on acting like my boss and breathing down my neck or anything like that. In fact she's a really nice person and very friendly also. Think it's just my own mentality/personality problem lah. =X
Ok I really hope these interns never ever find my blog. Ever. If not, I'm dead. But well, if you're one of the interns I mentioned up there and you're reading this, I want you to understand that I mean no harm ok. Those are just some of the crazy thoughts I have that I HAPPEN TO blog out. If you cannot stand it then probably we wont be very close friends in future either so... Ya.
Yep ok, just now my team head dated me for lunch hahaha. Went for Subway! Like finally lol. After eating Quiznos last night, I thought I preferred Subway. But after eating Subway, I can't decide b/w the two heh. I think I love the Quiznos cookie but I love Subway for having a wider variety of choices! =) But anw, both are good so yep, a recommendation frm me! =)
Anw, during the "date", my team head actually talked to me about alot of stuff, from work to personal life. I think she wanted to find out how I thought about the team/e2i so far so I just gave her my honest opinions coz really, working in e2i, in V6 has been really enjoyable and I really honestly believe that I got the best temp position in the world. Although I grumble alot about my work, esp during recent days, I wouldnt exchange it for any other temp position, even if the pay is like 10bucks/hr or something. The work, although not distributed to me, is intriguing and interesting. And I really want to stay on to see what more I can learn and experience. So hopefully hopefully hopefully I'll be getting some work soon coz well I feedback to my team head that there's nothing much for me to do at the moment. Anw Mok, if you're reading this, this is why I'm hesitating about quitting early. Honestly, if my job sucked, I wouldn't even have extended my contract you see. =)
Well my team head also talked to me about alot of stuff like learning and growing up, knowing how to differentiate b/w learning the right from the wrong things, being more sensitive and aware of the things around me, etc. I actually told her that one of the problems I'm facing is low self-esteem/confidence. Coz I realise that I always look to other people for affirmation when it comes to decision making; whether the decision is something practical like what I should study, to things like is this the kind of person I want to/should become? Well I think that's just a problem that I have to think about and deal with myself. Coz I cant be babysat (is there such a word?) for the rest of my whole life and someday, I need to be able to stand on my own feet and be confident of being who I am, whoever that is. So yep, I guess this lack of confidence is actually part of my learning experience and honestly speaking, it's good that I'm aware of it. then at least I'll be able to face it and see what I can do about it. =) Ah this is one of the times when I realise that I'm still just a kid who's growing up. =D
Am I actually making sense?
I just received a highly irritating call frm a highly irritating JS. I think she's misunderstanding something (alot of things, maybe) and yet continues to refuse to listen to what exactly I'm saying. I think she thinks the world revolves around her. Srsly, so what if you're a PR and you urgently need a job. Hello. Everyone who comes here needs a job. I dont see why they can still be polite and appreciative of the help given to them while you're just coming here and demanding for things to be done solely for you. Srsly, if she continues to be like that, she might just become one of the cases which I'll turn away due to unreasonable attitude. =(
Ok sorry just a bit of ranting there. =(
Anw yep, back to happy things.
Yep I'm excited about university too! Not much at the moment, but I think that's coz I'm still working so, don't really have much time to think about university yet. But I know I'll be excited about it once I start attending those camps and all. And well, adrenaline rushes when I (just) realise that I havent sent the form P to confirm my acceptance. =X Haha shit I have to do it by tomorrow.
Eh shit now I have a lot of things that I'm excited about. I'm excited about all the upcoming events that my team has in the second week of June, esp this master class that my supervisor is organising. I'm excited about YJ's bday celebration tmr. I'm excited about my colleague's wedding and my team head said I can date her to go buy shoes if I need a new pair (I srsly dont have any nice shoes to wear for the wedding! Ok now I sound like I'm the bride. -.-) Haha yea so actually life's really happy and exciting right now. =) Lots of interesting things to look forward to!
Oh btw meeting up with Mok + Rach + Fang was pretty fun and interesting ytd. =) Had an awesome time with you guys I love you all to Pluto and back! =D I love how comfortable it feels and we're able to sit down and just talk/laugh about anything and everything. Sometime ago I was still thinking that my laughter has gotten less since idk when and I was feeling slightly sad about it. But hanging around you guys definitely brings the laughter and happiness back. Thank you peeps, you guys rock to the core. =D
2:26 PM
Sunday, May 22, 2011
♥ 220511
Hello.
Just dropping by coz I really have nothing else to do online. Or offline. Just finished painting my toenails, I'm not very happy with the way they look coz there's zero design and
ah shit the second toenail accidentally touched a plastic bag and now the topcoat's slightly destroyed.
Ok anw I was saying there's zero design on my toenails and the colour isn't the best colour around. But I thought since I dont think I'd ever use tt colour on my hands, might as well use it on my toes to help hide my currently very ugly looking toenails. :(
Earlier on in the evening I was thinking that I've let my nails "rest" enough already and was thinking about how I should paint it. But ended up spending my evening watching Kungfu Panda (haha) and hence not enough time to do my nails. =X
Ah my eyes are quite tired I'm gng to sleep soon there's still work tmr. I havent book the place at FFT yet I hope there's still place for reservations. :(
And anw I've been thinking abit about the 5 ways to win my heart thing and I've come up with a few things. Well I'm not sure whether that's the way to win my heart but at least that's how I wish my future bf would be like hehe. =P
But I dont have time to blog abt it now so.... Sometime in the near future I guess?
My stomach's feeling weird.
Just dropping by coz I really have nothing else to do online. Or offline. Just finished painting my toenails, I'm not very happy with the way they look coz there's zero design and
ah shit the second toenail accidentally touched a plastic bag and now the topcoat's slightly destroyed.
Ok anw I was saying there's zero design on my toenails and the colour isn't the best colour around. But I thought since I dont think I'd ever use tt colour on my hands, might as well use it on my toes to help hide my currently very ugly looking toenails. :(
Earlier on in the evening I was thinking that I've let my nails "rest" enough already and was thinking about how I should paint it. But ended up spending my evening watching Kungfu Panda (haha) and hence not enough time to do my nails. =X
Ah my eyes are quite tired I'm gng to sleep soon there's still work tmr. I havent book the place at FFT yet I hope there's still place for reservations. :(
And anw I've been thinking abit about the 5 ways to win my heart thing and I've come up with a few things. Well I'm not sure whether that's the way to win my heart but at least that's how I wish my future bf would be like hehe. =P
But I dont have time to blog abt it now so.... Sometime in the near future I guess?
My stomach's feeling weird.
11:55 PM
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
♥ Freezing Desert
Heyyooo I'm blogging from work. =X Luckily nobody at work knows my blog. Ok fine almost nobody knows my blog/doesnt bother to come anymore wahahaha privacy. =) Haha I knw my blog's really pathetic now, the prev post's more than 1 month ago. Hey actually I'm suprised that it's not more than that coz it really feels like the last time I blogged was the starting of the year.
Ok enough gibberish.
Just some general updates:
1. Work was fine. Till recently. Somehow ever since I came back from holiday in China, my workflow has been so little it's pathetic. I know my workload has never been overbearing but currently it's srsly TOO little. The amount of time I've been spending on MLIA during office hours is becoming uncomfortable to live with. Feels like my team shouldn't have hired 2 temps when all they need is 1. -.- And I'm no longer learning anything due to so little work but I knw there's still alot of things I havent seen/experienced yet! I need more work.
OH I almost forgot to mention this. They changed the plant in front of my desk! Previously was this HUGE one that gave me shade + protection from the freezing aircon + privacy. But now it's changed to this mini one that robbed me of the comforts of my desk!! T_T Sadness ttm. I'm someone who prizes my environment alot after all. Maybe the change of plants changed my fengshui and hence my work has gotten less?! D=
2. I'm 19! Ok nothing much to be proud about aging haha. I was just reading the blogpost about me turning 18 last yr and it seemed so, full of fun and lots of people. this yr's was kind of, lonely. I still rmb it quite clearly. Specially wore the only dress I bought using my own moolah for the day, coming to work cheerfully, and ending up feeling so pathetic during lunch. Well at least Dorry and Yisin were there for me during lunch. =) And Candy rmbing + informing the other perm staff abt my bday was nice. =) Then headed off early from work to meet Huifang for dinner + a mini celebration. =) So generally it's just a low-toned day with tiny perks here and there.
Well of course my family + friends made up for it after that =D The bday balloon I got is still floating around in my room! Albeit very much deflated now haha. =)
And thanks to all those people who wished me via sms + fb. Really thank you frm the bottom of my heart, but somehow, it's just different. =X
Well, I can't say being 19 has been very happening. Well I know having my own income and everything is super cool and all but looking at the uni school fees is a humbling experience (really!). Ok work has been cool, in fact I love my work (at least before it started becoming so boring when there's nothing for me to do). But uni's coming up! =D I sealed my fate ytd when I officially accepted NUS FoS and rejected NTU Biological Sciences. Planning my day at the NUS FoS open house now and daydreaming abt uni life. Haha. I hope I've made the right choice. And yes, I know that from now on, my life as a 19 will definitely get more exciting.
Hello, last teenage year leh. Must make it exciting.
3. My family and I went to Beijing, China for holiday last week! =D Took one whole week's worth of leave. Totally heartache at the amount of pay I sacrificed for this. T_T But haha heck. It's a cool experience except on the 4th day when I felt unwell. Photos are up on fb! =D
Ok yep I think that's all for general updates. Somehow I feel that even though I put "ok enough gibberish" up there, the content following that line is still gibberish. =X
Anyway, I saw this thing on Yann's blog. It's supposed to be this 30-day Challenge thing where I'm supposed to ans 1 qn per day. So here's the list of qns:
1. Five ways to win your heart.
2. Something you feel strongly about.
3. A book you love.
4. Bullet your whole day.
5. Things you want to say to an ex.
6. Your views on mainstream music.
7. Five pet peeves.
8. What you ate today.
9. How important you think education is.
10. Put your music player on shuffle and write the first ten songs that play.
11. Your family.
12. Five guys whom you find attractive.
13. Your opinion about your body and how comfortable you are with it.
14. What you wore today.
15. Your zodiac/horoscope and if you think it fits your personality.
16. Something you always think “what if…” about.
17. Something that you’re proud of.
18. A problem that you have had.
19. Five items you lust after.
20. Your fears.
21. How you hope your future will be like.
22. Your academics.
23. Something that you miss.
24. Five words/phrases that make you laugh.
25. Something you’re currently worrying about.
27. A quote you try to live by.
28. Somewhere you’d like to move to or visit.
29. Five weird things that you like.
30. One thing you’re excited for.
Ahh it's quite hard to start coz the first qn is already slapping me with alot of qn marks. =X
Ok enough gibberish.
Just some general updates:
1. Work was fine. Till recently. Somehow ever since I came back from holiday in China, my workflow has been so little it's pathetic. I know my workload has never been overbearing but currently it's srsly TOO little. The amount of time I've been spending on MLIA during office hours is becoming uncomfortable to live with. Feels like my team shouldn't have hired 2 temps when all they need is 1. -.- And I'm no longer learning anything due to so little work but I knw there's still alot of things I havent seen/experienced yet! I need more work.
OH I almost forgot to mention this. They changed the plant in front of my desk! Previously was this HUGE one that gave me shade + protection from the freezing aircon + privacy. But now it's changed to this mini one that robbed me of the comforts of my desk!! T_T Sadness ttm. I'm someone who prizes my environment alot after all. Maybe the change of plants changed my fengshui and hence my work has gotten less?! D=
2. I'm 19! Ok nothing much to be proud about aging haha. I was just reading the blogpost about me turning 18 last yr and it seemed so, full of fun and lots of people. this yr's was kind of, lonely. I still rmb it quite clearly. Specially wore the only dress I bought using my own moolah for the day, coming to work cheerfully, and ending up feeling so pathetic during lunch. Well at least Dorry and Yisin were there for me during lunch. =) And Candy rmbing + informing the other perm staff abt my bday was nice. =) Then headed off early from work to meet Huifang for dinner + a mini celebration. =) So generally it's just a low-toned day with tiny perks here and there.
Well of course my family + friends made up for it after that =D The bday balloon I got is still floating around in my room! Albeit very much deflated now haha. =)
And thanks to all those people who wished me via sms + fb. Really thank you frm the bottom of my heart, but somehow, it's just different. =X
Well, I can't say being 19 has been very happening. Well I know having my own income and everything is super cool and all but looking at the uni school fees is a humbling experience (really!). Ok work has been cool, in fact I love my work (at least before it started becoming so boring when there's nothing for me to do). But uni's coming up! =D I sealed my fate ytd when I officially accepted NUS FoS and rejected NTU Biological Sciences. Planning my day at the NUS FoS open house now and daydreaming abt uni life. Haha. I hope I've made the right choice. And yes, I know that from now on, my life as a 19 will definitely get more exciting.
Hello, last teenage year leh. Must make it exciting.
3. My family and I went to Beijing, China for holiday last week! =D Took one whole week's worth of leave. Totally heartache at the amount of pay I sacrificed for this. T_T But haha heck. It's a cool experience except on the 4th day when I felt unwell. Photos are up on fb! =D
Ok yep I think that's all for general updates. Somehow I feel that even though I put "ok enough gibberish" up there, the content following that line is still gibberish. =X
Anyway, I saw this thing on Yann's blog. It's supposed to be this 30-day Challenge thing where I'm supposed to ans 1 qn per day. So here's the list of qns:
1. Five ways to win your heart.
2. Something you feel strongly about.
3. A book you love.
4. Bullet your whole day.
5. Things you want to say to an ex.
6. Your views on mainstream music.
7. Five pet peeves.
8. What you ate today.
9. How important you think education is.
10. Put your music player on shuffle and write the first ten songs that play.
11. Your family.
12. Five guys whom you find attractive.
13. Your opinion about your body and how comfortable you are with it.
14. What you wore today.
15. Your zodiac/horoscope and if you think it fits your personality.
16. Something you always think “what if…” about.
17. Something that you’re proud of.
18. A problem that you have had.
19. Five items you lust after.
20. Your fears.
21. How you hope your future will be like.
22. Your academics.
23. Something that you miss.
24. Five words/phrases that make you laugh.
25. Something you’re currently worrying about.
27. A quote you try to live by.
28. Somewhere you’d like to move to or visit.
29. Five weird things that you like.
30. One thing you’re excited for.
Ahh it's quite hard to start coz the first qn is already slapping me with alot of qn marks. =X
11:19 AM
Monday, April 11, 2011
♥ Karma...?
I know there's a saying that when everyone showcase their own pile of problems, we would gladly take our own pile back. But sometimes, just sometimes, I can't help but think that I seem to have that little bit more problems than some of the people around me. And it makes me think, why can't I be like them? Life should stop being such an asshole. Maybe it's karma from past life hmm.
-----
Went out w juniors on sat! :) Not alot of seniors turned up (not alot meaning 4) but it was fun to hand out with them anyway. Been a long time since I've interacted with anyone who's still in school. Honestly speaking, I don't really have that much nice memories of HC. My previous post still holds true. But I guess sometimes things need to have a good ending in order to leave a nice general impression. I've had a little bit of bitter overdose.
-----
I think I'm going to end up watching movie alone tmr night. Give myself a treat for having lived for so long. Shall go see what movies available later.
-----
Went out w juniors on sat! :) Not alot of seniors turned up (not alot meaning 4) but it was fun to hand out with them anyway. Been a long time since I've interacted with anyone who's still in school. Honestly speaking, I don't really have that much nice memories of HC. My previous post still holds true. But I guess sometimes things need to have a good ending in order to leave a nice general impression. I've had a little bit of bitter overdose.
-----
I think I'm going to end up watching movie alone tmr night. Give myself a treat for having lived for so long. Shall go see what movies available later.
12:55 PM
Saturday, March 05, 2011
♥ Post-As
And hence, my JC life is truly over.
It's been a wild ride, full of ups and downs (mostly downs actly, with some quite extreme ups), twists and turns. I've felt priviledged at times, and deprived at times; felt super lucky to be in this school, and freaking suay the next moment. It's a mixture of a whole bunch of emotions that this school has brought me, even if those emotions are mostly conflicting.
The past 2 years have basically whacked me with all kinds of disappointments and hardship, and sent a a whole bunch of people my way for me to deal with. But what I appreciate is that among the tears I've shed, I've still managed to find laughter in certain corners of this oh-so-familiar school. And among the bunch of meanpokes and ridiculous people who try to make my life miserable or hurt/abandon me when I need them, I've found friends whom I know will be there for me for the rest of my life.
I wouldn't say my A level results are fabulous. In fact, to be honest, they're downright lousy. I've got some pretty serious resentment and angst hidden somewhere within myself. But I know better than to sulk in a corner and rot. Learning to take a step back has allowed me to see that life still goes on, even though this setback has caused me to lose myself momentarily. And after talking to certain people, I've realised that all the stress that I thought others were putting on me, were actually coming from myself. [Ah but that doesn't mean I've stopped disliking people for seeing me based on my achievements and results. I'll dislike this kind of people for life so better stay farfar away from me!]
In conclusion, I'm generally thankful for the experience that the past 2 years have brought me. I am consciously aware that I have matured/grown stronger from the experiences of the past 18+ years, especially after having the past few months of self-reflection. I hope that I'm facing life/the future with the right attitude, and maybe the future might just bring more joy than ever. =)
Lastly, I have certain people that I need to thank. I don't really know where to start heh.
Teachers: Thankyou so much for being so patient with me, even though I was such a difficult and lazy student. Thankyou for forgiving me and never giving up hope on me, encouraging me to continue to strive hard even when things seem so bleak at times. And thankyou for all the consultation sessions that you guys were willing to spend so that I can improve even that tiny little bit. Special mention goes to Mr Heng, who is always there with his wide smile and cheerful encouragements even on the saddest of days. =)
HCCO Tanbo + Tenboh: Life in JC wouldn't have been half as fun without you guys around! All the laughter we had, all the pain we shared, as well as all the hard + heart work we put in together to achieve those shining results; I'll keep them all inside my heart. You guys are one of the most amazing bunch of people I've met, seniors + peers + juniors alike. I've learnt a lot from you guys and thank you for being part of my HCCO life. =)
08S74 + Weisin: Thanks for being such nice seniors, and for introducing HC life to me haha. For all the tips, guidance, assurances and of course, encouragement and wishes of good luck! You guys are seriously the most friendly seniors I've ever met, and I'm glad for that fact. =) Thankyou for all the concern you guys have shown! =)
09S74: Haha thanks for being a bunch of fabulous classmates! You guys are the people who make me feel that I belong to 09S74, since we go through some of the most daunting times together. Thanks for the never ending encouragement and for being there for me when I'm being sad about bad grades. And also for being willing to spend time to teach me when I stupidly cannot grasp certain concepts. =) Special mention goes to CTG, TripSci gang, and T&T gang!
YJ + LW + NP: Hello you three. =) I know YJ said something about we shldnt be so exclusive but heck. Anw, I find it quite amazing that we actually became so close, despite all the differences b/w us. We've gone through some pretty interesting/ridiculous times together, and I'm really grateful for how thoughtful and caring you guys are towards me all this while. I hope I've been an equally good friend to you guys too. =P This friendship is very very special and precious to me, I'll definitely regret it if we let it fall apart. Keep in touch k!
Ok think I'm pretty much done. Time to think about what to do for e future. Wish me luck! =)
It's been a wild ride, full of ups and downs (mostly downs actly, with some quite extreme ups), twists and turns. I've felt priviledged at times, and deprived at times; felt super lucky to be in this school, and freaking suay the next moment. It's a mixture of a whole bunch of emotions that this school has brought me, even if those emotions are mostly conflicting.
The past 2 years have basically whacked me with all kinds of disappointments and hardship, and sent a a whole bunch of people my way for me to deal with. But what I appreciate is that among the tears I've shed, I've still managed to find laughter in certain corners of this oh-so-familiar school. And among the bunch of meanpokes and ridiculous people who try to make my life miserable or hurt/abandon me when I need them, I've found friends whom I know will be there for me for the rest of my life.
I wouldn't say my A level results are fabulous. In fact, to be honest, they're downright lousy. I've got some pretty serious resentment and angst hidden somewhere within myself. But I know better than to sulk in a corner and rot. Learning to take a step back has allowed me to see that life still goes on, even though this setback has caused me to lose myself momentarily. And after talking to certain people, I've realised that all the stress that I thought others were putting on me, were actually coming from myself. [Ah but that doesn't mean I've stopped disliking people for seeing me based on my achievements and results. I'll dislike this kind of people for life so better stay farfar away from me!]
In conclusion, I'm generally thankful for the experience that the past 2 years have brought me. I am consciously aware that I have matured/grown stronger from the experiences of the past 18+ years, especially after having the past few months of self-reflection. I hope that I'm facing life/the future with the right attitude, and maybe the future might just bring more joy than ever. =)
Lastly, I have certain people that I need to thank. I don't really know where to start heh.
Teachers: Thankyou so much for being so patient with me, even though I was such a difficult and lazy student. Thankyou for forgiving me and never giving up hope on me, encouraging me to continue to strive hard even when things seem so bleak at times. And thankyou for all the consultation sessions that you guys were willing to spend so that I can improve even that tiny little bit. Special mention goes to Mr Heng, who is always there with his wide smile and cheerful encouragements even on the saddest of days. =)
HCCO Tanbo + Tenboh: Life in JC wouldn't have been half as fun without you guys around! All the laughter we had, all the pain we shared, as well as all the hard + heart work we put in together to achieve those shining results; I'll keep them all inside my heart. You guys are one of the most amazing bunch of people I've met, seniors + peers + juniors alike. I've learnt a lot from you guys and thank you for being part of my HCCO life. =)
08S74 + Weisin: Thanks for being such nice seniors, and for introducing HC life to me haha. For all the tips, guidance, assurances and of course, encouragement and wishes of good luck! You guys are seriously the most friendly seniors I've ever met, and I'm glad for that fact. =) Thankyou for all the concern you guys have shown! =)
09S74: Haha thanks for being a bunch of fabulous classmates! You guys are the people who make me feel that I belong to 09S74, since we go through some of the most daunting times together. Thanks for the never ending encouragement and for being there for me when I'm being sad about bad grades. And also for being willing to spend time to teach me when I stupidly cannot grasp certain concepts. =) Special mention goes to CTG, TripSci gang, and T&T gang!
YJ + LW + NP: Hello you three. =) I know YJ said something about we shldnt be so exclusive but heck. Anw, I find it quite amazing that we actually became so close, despite all the differences b/w us. We've gone through some pretty interesting/ridiculous times together, and I'm really grateful for how thoughtful and caring you guys are towards me all this while. I hope I've been an equally good friend to you guys too. =P This friendship is very very special and precious to me, I'll definitely regret it if we let it fall apart. Keep in touch k!
Ok think I'm pretty much done. Time to think about what to do for e future. Wish me luck! =)
10:25 AM
